This week has been emotional for me. Typically I do not comment on any social happenings but this has rocked me. The death of Ermias Ashghedom (better known as Nipsey Hussle) has shaken the world. If you didn’t know who he was before, you likely know who he is now. If you don’t, I’ll allow you the opportunity of doing your own research.
I want to take a moment to share the inspiration that this loss has revitalized within me. I too, have suffered great personal loss through death. On November 11, 2006, my eldest son’s father, Michael Adams, was brutally murdered at the age of 27, when our son was just 8 years old. Immediately following these losses I questioned GOD. Admittedly, I was angry, hurt, sad, shocked. I even felt that I was with God. I didn’t get it yet. I didn’t understand. I didn’t realize that I was being called to appreciate and cherish the times I had with my loved ones. I was focused on the fact that I no longer had them.
12 years later (a relatively short timeframe) I lost my older brother (best friend and confidante) Michael Porter to terminal pancreatic cancer on January 8, 2015. I was a bit further into my spiritual evolution so I was able to grasp the gratitude in even being able to know and experience him, but, I was still sad and hurt that this person whom I had grown used to communicating with on a daily basis was no longer here with me on the physical plane.
In retrospect, it took me several years and experiences later to really understand and realize the great blessing and gift I had been given in the actual experience of being able to love so deeply. The magnitude of my pain matched the magnitude of love that I had been capable of feeling. What a blessing! What an incredible and wonderful experience to have been able to have.
The celebration ceremony that was held in Nipsey’s honor was humbling, breath-taking and so wonderful. His mother was such a beacon of perspective alchemy for the world to witness. I was so overjoyed to watch and listen to the very intentional and whole perspective she expressed. We are divine, we are whole. YES GOD!!!!! The energetic shift that Nipsey’s ascension has created is so beautiful to watch. It also now holds humanity to a higher standard. Although I felt triggered initially about my loss, it has fostered a much greater appreciation and calling to truly walk unapologetically in my purpose.
Hoping it’s had similar effects on you.
With So Much Love,